So, how was your 2020? *cue the awkward silence* What the hell happened? I have to admit, my 2019 wasn’t the best, and 2020 was going to be MY year. Well, that was an epic fail wasn’t it?
It’s hard to put into words just how bad it was, so I’m not going to. I can’t. But you’ll see that I didn’t blog once in 2020. I also didn’t post on Instagram for most of the year. I couldn’t. Makeup reviews seemed so trivial while I, like many others, was trying to keep my head above water to keep functioning and to make sure that my family was safe and happy.
I can look back now and say that I learned a lot – sometimes in pretty harsh ways. I’ll share them with you, but please don’t think that this is me telling you what to do – they’re just some of the lessons that hit me over the head (sometimes more than once) in 2020.
- In the brutality of life, it’s the little things that make a difference.
- Real people stand out, and the ones that don’t have good intentions very quickly show themselves.
- If you need to shut down parts of you (like socialising or replying to emails/texts immediately) in order to just get by, do it, and don’t apologise. Those who know you, will know that you’re not ignoring them.
- You need to set boundaries.
- Your energy and wellness is the most important thing.
- If you get triggered, take a moment to step outside of yourself and ask why you’re being triggered. It will blow your mind!
- Being an introvert is cool!
- Gardening is way more therapeutic than I realised.
- Extreme pressure causes some extreme behaviours – stay true to yourself and recognise that bad behaviours in others is more about them than you.
- Your cat can be your BFF (C, that one’s for you and I).
- Makeup and skincare IS self care.
- Making bread is fun.
- I like my kids.
- Schoolwork is hard.
- When you’re stressed, what is one thing you can do to change things? (thanks for the tip Dr Kylie.)
- I’m grateful to live in New Zealand.
- People will try to take advantage of a good work ethic.
- Overthinking will stress you out.
- You need an outlet for stress.
- Wine is delicious, but not always the answer.
So, cut to 2021, and after a beautiful Kiwi summer holiday with my family, I’m looking down the barrel of a new year and trying to be positive about the year to come.
What if it’s horrible like last year? Possible. But hopefully we’ll be better equipped to handle it. I don’t want to say “new year, new me” and set heaps of resolutions. Instead I’m trying to be kind to myself. I wasn’t very kind to me in 2020, and really abused my body by working long stressful hours (I work in healthcare) and not giving it good nutrition or physical exercise.
One good thing I did to was go to a chiropractor. She was amazing and really put me into a good space. She straightened me up and my migraines have decreased significantly. She’s also so encouraging, asking me what’s the one thing I can do to reduce stress in a given moment. That really changed me and is something that I now ask myself when I’m stressed.
This year, I’m going to be kind to myself. I’m going to continue to set boundaries and focus on the things that are most important to me. I’m taking up my love of blogging again because I realise that even when everything hits the fan, my blog can be a place of escape for some people.
I’m going to start journalling and setting my intentions. Not in a big way, but just jotting things down as they come to me. Yesterday I watched a TV show and one of the characters said a beautiful quote that I’d journalled.
Even in fear, you can still step forward.
And because my job is stressful, I know I need an outlet. If I don’t have one, my stress will go inside me and that’s not good. I’ve started going on walks and am looking at some other options that I can do while at home.
So, that’s it from me. I hope that you are as well as can be. Here’s to 2021 and to facing it with as much authenticity, integrity and grace as we can.